USERNAME: sevilovebot
PASSWORD: ***********

KakaoTalk

Sevi

Spotify

Notes

hello ainie!
happy first month.
grabe, never in my wildest dreams did i ever imagine myself say this to you. siguro out of all the people i've been in a relationship with, ikaw yung may pinaka marami akong what ifs.
hppyclub palang, meron na. what if i fell for jeongin instead of han? nung time na yon, i was sure i felt something for you. nung umalis ka sa rp i was so devastated. i kept on telling everyone i missed you and a part of me knows na somehow that was my fault. when i returned from being on hiatus dahil sa nangyari sa'min ni han, you were there. nung time na yon, i could feel myself entertaining the thought of 'what if naging tayo?', the possibility of falling for you pero i had to stop and catch myself. kasi i know i wasn't fully okay and by doing so i was making you a rebound. at hindi mo deserve yon.
we became friends even outside of hppyclb, and i was so happy i get to keep you longer. at the same time i was also worried because i knew you were hurt and being connected with me will only hurt you more. pero we remained friends, were even together in a few rps. and although we didn't talk much, i was still happy.
when i moved from von to kleist, that's when we started talking for real. i knew more about you, and got comfy telling you about random things.
naaalala ko nung nagkakalabuan din kayo non ng ex mo, nagkekwento ka rin sa'kin. i was really annoyed that time, kasi alam ko kung paano ka magmahal. and it's frustrating to know na sinasayang lang niya yung pagmamahal mo. tsaka nagulat din ako kasi akala ko solid kayo. may anak pa nga kayo eh?! hahaha.
we may have lost contact several times pero for some odd reason, we always find our way back to each other. ang cool 'no? parang universe na mismo nagasabi na hindi kayo pwede mag fall apart.
and then, that led us to when we did the 72 hours challenge. for me ito talaga yung isa sa mga pinaka memorable moment natin. i finally got to tell you my biggest 'what if' about us; what if naging tayo nalang?
72 hours was short, pero it was enough for me to find out na being with you is like being on cloud 9. it's everything anyone would want in a relationship. that time, i was still with matti kaya i genuinely wished you'd find someone that would see that and feel the same way i did.
nung mga panahon na yun nga, inaasar ako nina xavi. sobrang tagal na raw natin magkakilala, bakit nga ba hindi na lang ikaw yung piliin ko? haha it was something they would always tease me about, kasi alam nga nila na you liked me back then. i would always tell them i'm grateful for that and how i wished na sana nga ikaw nalang. maybe i could've saved myself from all the heartbreak.
this is where i say, thank you.
thank you for finding me, back then. hindi ko inakalang hahanapin mo ako even after i deactivated my crudepIay account. but i'm glad you did, kasi it led us to where we are now.
up until now, hindi ko inakalang i'd find myself falling for you. sabi nga sa'kin nina xavi, tangina ko raw kasi ang ending ko naman pala ikaw pa rin hahaha. thank you for still loving me despite all the shit and hurt i put you through. thank you for always being there for me, for being so patient and understanding even if you didn't have to.
it's cliche, pero i want you to know that you are indeed my home. i always look forward to spending time with you after a long day. talking to you makes me feel at ease. it brings me comfort. and believe me when i say no one else has this effect on me but you.
nasabi ko na 'to sa'yo, pero our story is my favorite. hindi siya yung kagaya ng iba na bigla bigla nalang silang na-fall in love sa taong gusto nila. ours was slow, as if the universe took its time with it. i know the pace was mainly because of me but at the same time, i've never felt so sure about someone ever before. sa mga previous relationships ko, there were always doubts, second thoughts, i always needed reassurance pero i never felt those with you. we've only been together (officially) for a month pero it feels like i've been with you longer than that, dahil nga siguro antagal na natin magkakilala.
and i'm determined to stay with you even longer, to make what we have last. kahit alam kong i'm not being a very good boyfriend to you right now, at madalas akong mawala, do know that i'm trying my best. sobra rin akong nafu-frustrate kasi alam kong hindi mo deserve 'to, and i resent myself for doing this to you. pero i just hope that one day i can fully recover, so that i can confidently say i deserve your love and efforts.
i love you so much, sevi. words aren't enough to fully express how i feel pero i love you so much.

i'm not sure if this is a good time to say this din, pero i think i'm starting to fall for you even beyond rpw. i badly wanted to accept your confession pero na-trauma kasi ako. lahat ng dinadala ko beyond rpw hindi nagwo-work out. and i'm trying to think of reasons why you would actually like the person behind kiev. kaya ko rin nasabi yun sa'yo, i was trying to see if you really meant it, o nasabi mo nga lang dahil nawala ako ng ilang araw. but this time i honestly don't want to take the risk, kasi i don't wanna lose you.

anyway, happy first month to us ulit, my baby. here's to more months and years of being together. i love you.

we_cute.jpg

just2dorks.jpg

sopakidz.jpg

loml_eating.jpg

datedatedate.jpg

loml_eating2.jpg

kopoldpdaw.jpg

hehehehe.jpg

we_cuteulit.jpg

buslovestory.jpg

sleepy_sevi.jpg

pakmodelling.jpg

iloveview.jpg

datedatedatedate.jpg

sorpreeza.jpg

tuwakadiyan_bui.jpg

pogikodito.jpg

babiedinner.jpg

hoodie_hunting.jpg

cafe.jpg

sleepy_sevi2.jpg

shyshyshy.jpg

sevisonly.jpg

iloveyou.jpg

we_cute.jpg

wahaha sobrang cute natin dito. bagay sa'yo yung yellow beret mo ainie!

just2dorks.jpg

na-mention ko na i love how i can be myself when i'm with you 'di ba? i can be dorky or stupid all i want and you won't judge me; heck, you'll even join and be silly with me. it's one of the things i love about you.

sopakidz.jpg

naaalala mo ba 'to? the very first couple dp we did sa hppyclb! i remember na 'sopa kidz' din yung nilagay kong caption hahaha. how nostalgic.

loml_eating.jpg

sarap ng kain mo diyan ser ah.
pwede namang ako nalang kainin mo.
HAHAHAS JASHJKDASKJDSA JK.